Keeper of the faith.
The last 25 years haven't been easy, but I'm here. I've battled more than anyone could ever understand. I'm a very private person. I've just been hurt to the core so many times by the people I love, so I refute. I run. I'm a runner.
I promised myself I'd "live a little" this year. I went to Chicago for my birthday in July, and it was amazing. The week I came home, my life changed. A high school friend, Jesse Garcia, was senselessly murdered. Even now, his murderer roams the streets carefree while Jesse didn't live to see his 24th birthday. It hurt. It still hurts. Jesse losing his life really changed mine.
I always talk about having faith and believing in God. To be honest, I wasn't walking by faith. I was living in fear... doing what is comfortable... playing it safe. Why? Simply because of the fear of the unknown.
Jesse was so honest, caring, and ambitious. He made a huge impact on my life while he was here and even more now that he is gone. Life is not promised. Everyone says that, but do you really understand what it means? We all have a headstone with our names engraved on it. It's just a matter of time.
Time is the most valuable thing we will ever have. The one thing in this world we can never get back. What are you doing with yours? Me? I'm living. Truly living. We all have the power to do whatever we want and be whoever we desire. It won't be easy, but you have to try. You miss 100% of the shots you don't take. We don't have time to live in fear. Life is already so short. Live your life and live it unapologetically.
I can say for the first time in my life... I'm living. I packed my belongings and with the help of a dear friend, I hit the road. I am a Chicagoan. Every day is a challenge, but every moment I breathe another breath is a blessing. Im going to make a conscious effort to blog throughout this journey.
I guess the message for this post is... Take risks. You never know until you try. Shoot your shot.
Also, Rest in Heaven Jesse. If you'd like to stay updated and support the cause - please join the #JusticeForJesse group on Facebook. Here is the link: https://www.facebook.com/groups/1814659275432920/